l2eborn

A place for my damn head.

2004-11-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

I watch how the moon sits in the sky in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
and the sun doesnt give life to the moon
assuming the moons gonna owe at one

It make me think of how u act to me
you do favours then rapidly juz turn around and start askin me
bout things that u wan back from me

Im sick of the tension
sick of the hunger
sick of you acting like i owe u this
find another place to feed ur greed while i find a place to rest

I wanna be in another place
i hate when you say you dont understand
i wanna be in the energy not with the enemy
a place for my head

Maybe someday i'll be juz like you
step on ppl like you do
runaway all the ppl i thought i knew
i remember back then who you were
you used to be calm
used be strong
used to be generous
but u should hav known
that u'll wear out ur welcome
and now u see how quiet it is all alone

Im so sick of the tension
sick of the hunger
sick of you acting like i owe u this
find another place to feed ur greed while i find a place to rest (x2)

I wanna be another place
i hate when you say u dont understand
i wanna be in the energy not with the enemy
a place for my head

work.work.work

2004-10-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

work sucks man.ill nv be a bell boy ever again.8 hrs everyday for the next 9 days.it is bloody tiring man like no slouching MUS smile and greet the guest.and like on tues this bloody ang mo think he big shot scold me like siao.and so far i onli got 5 bucks tips lol barely enough to buy 2 kopi.of cuz i met alot of ppl this week espcially the staff whom i get along really well that obviously excludes the duty manager who nags all day.the other gd thing is that its really hot there cuz there are alot of hot ppl walking past i mean duh its orchard.neway met alot of frens walking by so malu man and some strangers of a certain sex who see me stand there then come to me and....nvm.and this sat is damn rush like i knock off at 4 then i hav to rush home before i go to church to catch the sermon at 6 b4 proceeding to kap to meet my frens for dinner then go for mg talentime.haiz its been a busy work so far so i got to catch u with sleep liao.peace

Gonna work tomorrow.

2004-10-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

Damn last night was juz bad.had 5 shots altogether including 2 cups of beer.me and ryan were little drunk after that.we couldnt even walk straight man.actually got lots to say bout the party but haiz so lazy to type.neway today woke up late cuz of the late night yesterday and damn i missed the last session of SOL.so i ended up staying home all day and reading the Da Vinci code.i onli went out for shopping at night.
So tomorrow im gonna work at the Hyatt hotel as part of the sch work experience.feel free to visit me ya.arr damn got a hard day ahead of me so yea gtg liao.peace

Bad results la

2004-10-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

Damn la today results came back and im like totally shocked la.i failed my chem by 1 mark and e maths but luckily the moderation pulled me up.i hope i dun go day-camp man cuz it sucks and i kinda wanna go for work experience.ill most prob be working at the Hyatt hotel as a concierge.my report books comin back on fri so ill be really dead by then when my dad finds out my marks.i hav a bloody 22 pts, i lost to lauzy and joel man.this time really tio trash.mus work damn hard now.i promise myself im goin to study during the hols man.neway i started on this new book called the Da Vinci code which seems to be real good.lol juz now on my way back from meeting a fren juz outside my place, i stopped by to visit my barker fren haha he looks damn ridiculus in longs man.to think ill be buying my pants soon.well i gtg catch up on sleep liao,for all ya peeps readin this pray that i dun get screwed for my bad results man.

Results tomorrow.

2004-10-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

Nowadays, i totally dont understand the purpose of going to sch.like today the onli thing we did in sch was watch Lay it down and Lord of the rings.gosh man the last thing i remembered was that my ass hurt really bad after sitting through the movies.and the teachers blame us for being slack when we can leave the class for the canteen anytime unchecked.after sch i played badminton b4 accompanying loong for tuition.Juz when i wanted to play soccer the damn rain had to come.I dunno but i think nick and fali are dao-ing me in class.like what the hell did i do wrong this time.
Results are tomorrow and i totally think im screwed.apart from failing my e math i think i fail chem or somethin.i really pray and hope that i wont go for con. camp cuz it sucks.its like the more i think bout it the nearer it seems to be.
So Anderson's party is this sat and im not sure if i wanna go.im damn confused now.there are ppl asking me to go but then again no one officially invited me.i dun think jungsoo is comin so that makes 1 less person i noe who is goin.but then again they said its a normal party for everyone so i guess ill juz go there and socialise a little.
:i need all the luck i can get tomorrow:peace.

~when nothing seems to go right, when men fail and despice you, remember that He will not forsake you~

Missing me

2004-10-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

There could be fog Or maybe just a mist And inexplicably I'll fade to white Vanish, and be gone
Or it could be night And I'll be darkly dressed,Evading easy definition And as your eye's distracted By a falling leaf I'll merge with restless shadows And be gone
Then you will discover What emptiness is
A space so hollow Even its own walls are swallowed up
A quality of missing So intenseA lack, a lack
Each hour more bottomless than the last Until your heart cries out,A howl of forfeiture
But it will be nothing Ashen silence where I used to sing And deafness
The howl must strike the right resonant frequency A wail that echoes all to the ends of time To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths From the well of your soul, such loneliness To make Siberian wolves hang heads for shame In their convivial packs
Then, only then Might you detect my footprints, indistinct Marking the morning dew fall
Perhaps glimpse a puff of breathin the cold, dawn air
You must utter A howl so desolate, it
Jerks you from your sleep To find me warm beside you on your pillow
And you will know how Close you were to the brink Of the abyss
And know what missing is And hold me.And treasure me.

Today is sunday.yea tomorrow is monday.damn

2004-10-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Damn those balls had to get stuck.oops i meant the pool balls.the stupid chalk juz had to go into the hole and ever-brilliant roy decided to throw all the balls in in desperate hopes of gettin the white one out.luckily the lady gave us another table.unluckily she took down our details so if her boss wants us to pay them it'll be (20*15)300 bucks.at the end of the day it was my fault, yea ryan was innocent and so was roy.so i guess im guilty...again.the 5 of us met and went on to watch wimbledon which i would give 3/5 tennis balls.and damn kristen dunst should get braces or somethin either that or stop acting in movies that require her to open her mouth.o yea heard euphoria was damn good haiz wasted man should hav gone.but i guess my parents wouldnt have allowed anyway cuz the concert will prob eat way into the night and my parents like all traditional ones will be like "wah so young already got wings ah can come back so late".plus i dunno whats with my parents.although i do nothin at home their theory is that as long as im home im productive but if im out im like a bad boy.now worse man i did so badly for my exams my dad using that to scold me and not as if he does anything.now juz hav to see if i hav to go con camp :( .peace.

~If lovin u is a crime.then im guilty~